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From Tragedy to Victory: How an In-Game NPC Transformed a Gamer Girl IRL

How does an MMO help a gamer girl cope with her father's murder? Simple: she transforms herself into her online avatar, mentally and physically becoming the NPC she envisioned.

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Video games have the amazing ability to transform yourself into anyone you want to become. Upon pressing Play, you instantly become a virtual avatar, capable of heroic powers, notable feats, and stoic dispositions.

But can a fantasized avatar embed the player with its fantastic persona—one that carries over into the real world?  

Yes it can. And it has.

My real name is Lauren Blanset, but to the 190 million registered users of Artix Entertainment games, I am hailed as “Beleen.” Beleen is a perky, positive, and pink-loving NPC in Artix’s flagship MMO AdventureQuest Worlds, always depicted with a beaming smile and kind-hearted demeanor.  

Hi! I'm Beleen!

As Senior Writer and Community Manager (who is also nominated in the Dragon Slayer Awards—hooray for shameless self promotion!), Beleen is the liaison between gamers and game developers, in addition to inspiring players with encouraging words and motivational speeches. The world (wide web) needs more positive role models, and I am honored to be one of them—as my adoring fan base would attest. @BeleenAE Hiya Twitterers! *waves* I’m on Game Skinny! =D

So it’s hard to fathom that a glowing gamer girl is the end result of a dismal tragedy.

(It’s about to get serious, folks.)

Seven years ago, my father was murdered. I gripped my dad’s hand as he tried to hang on to life, and as I uttered my final “I love you Daddy” cry, he managed to squeeze my hand back just before passing away.  

Not only was my dad my best friend, but he was also the glue that held my family together. Following his death, my mother and sisters were torn apart by anger, depression, and grief—all of which incessantly resurfaced with the 6 year stint of court arraignments, hearings, trials, and civil suits. 

The last photo taken with me and my dad

And just when my family thought we could finally put this horrid thing behind us… it reared its ugly head again. Last week, my father’s killer reappeared in court, asking the judge to expunge his criminal record of all charges and required restitution. Of course, no one in their right mind would ever excuse such horrific acts, and as such, the court denied the assailant’s every motion.

So how does a girl stay happy and positive when she watches her father die, witnesses her whole family fall apart, and carries the continuous grief of never sharing another moment with her best friend again?  

My solution: start life anew as a video game character.

I began my adventures at Artix Entertainment in 2009, and just like every MMO game out there, I needed to create an avatar. Because my father’s death 2 years prior was still crippling my life, I snatched the opportunity to create someone who I desperately wanted—and needed—to become.

First, I needed a name. And not just any name—THE name that millions of gamers would identify with. The name “Beleen” is derived of Middle English and Urban Dictionary origins; the verb “be” as “to be, become,” and the noun “leen” as “a fabulous, unique girl whose personality is one of a kind and represents beauty in all aspects.”   

Now that I had a great (user)name to uphold, I had no choice but to create an equally great character: the ideal me. Everything that I detested about my situation, my life, and myself was flipped 180 degrees: my real life misery was converted into Beleen’s positivity; my forlorn face now illuminated Beleen’s contagious smile; and the gloom which shrouded the real me became the shining beacon of hope that Beleen instilled upon the players.

Because I applied the Beleen façade daily, it actually started to change my real life existence. I became a happier person because Beleen was always happy. The Beleen NPC was beautiful and had a great body, so I began exercising daily and significantly changed my eating habits. I used Beleen’s teachings and happiness to enhance my own personal endeavors, and because of that, I literally transformed my mental attitude and physical appearance.

 

Beleen started as a dream and became my reality. She gave me the 1-UP I needed to continue this game of life.

Even though I have become Beleen, the pain of losing my dad will never go away. No one can walk me down the aisle on my most magical day. My children will never know their grandfather. And I’ll never enjoy that Saturday morning fried-egg feast that only a father knows how to cook up.

Life is full of ups and downs, triumphs and tragedies. But it’s never a game over—because there’s always an option to hit Restart. You just have to find that button and have the courage to press Play again.

Originally Published Aug. 7th 2014
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  • Aqua Dragon Master
    Hey Lauren! Just red this by accident (sorry didn't see it when you posted it).

    Didn't know about this, and as a friend I wished I could support. Nobodies life is easy, and as your family felt appart because of that lose, it should be hard to get over it without the close company of family.

    Personally I don't have much of a family, neither do I have a game character to cheer you up, nor a community that supports you and loves you. I know life can be hard but I know for sure that whatever happens to you or the rest of the company, you always have those 190 million players who support you and will wish that they can help you, they are all friends from around the world.

    As of help I will always be welcome to help out if needed as I told you

    Only thing I would say is that the transformation pic isn't necesairy imo (as young players would come here) but I can say, you look a marvelous!
  • Zenja Vencelj
    Hello Bellen,I am sorry if I bother you,but I have a small favor.I posted today my first suggestion for armor and I would like if you could see it and help a little if you can to make that armor in-game.I would be grateful to the rest of my life.Thanks.Be well and take care.

    ShadowdramonX..

    https://imageshack.us/i/eyq18o36p

    http://forums2.battleon.com/f/tm.asp?m=21380981&mpage=26&key=
  • joshobro_7002
    bellen i like ur story oh im gotten so inspired by ur story and artix entertaiment that i started a very very very small compony i hope u artix and the gang sapport my project that would mean alot to me sincerly-joshobro
  • Vexed Forest
    Woah. Thats....both tragic and heart warming. Why must you play with my feels, Beleen? :'( I've played AQW since beta and your NPC was always my favourite. I could never have imagined the impact she would have, especially on herself. Its just........you're too awesome! Battle on Beleen, you epic pink dragonslayer. Battle on!
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Aww thanks so much for being a lifelong hero and friend, Vexed Forest! We shall continue to fight the good fight together, because Good will always triumph over Evil (and Chaos)!
    Battle on!
  • thanks :)
    Dunno why but this just only motivated me harder to be an bodybuilder :O
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Thanks so much for reading my story, thanks :)! The moral behind my story is that a positive attitude will change your outlook AND outcome in life--so that's why you feel motivated to do everything you can to become bodybuilder! Keep up the positivity and perhaps one day I can train at your gym =D
    Battle on!
  • Jack_6552
    I play AQW for some years now, and looking at you as a regular, mature woman rather than a silly NPC gets everything largely different.
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Thanks so much for hearing my story, Jack. I want everyone to know how a positive attitude can change your outlook and outcome in life =D
    Battle on!
  • sory if i ask here :D
    ive been searching dat hairstyle on aqw what you have on that aqw beleen pic for ages :D where can i find it? or does it excist only for you?
  • Ray_7467
    Dude you're life does not suck at all, why don't you check out the reports for the people back in Gaza (Palestine) they lost all of there Family members, Friends, They have no Food,Drinks and you;re sitting here crying about you're dad? Get a life dude i mean yeah losing a Family member sucks but seriously? That's the reason you're life is full of misery LOL?! I mean yeah Beleen you're an awesome dude you rock but realize that you're wrong about you're life being full of misery. Also if you don't believe whats happening in Palestine and other muslim contrys i don't blame you, the media is full of lie that only represents muslim as the evil.
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Dear Ray, you have missed the moral of my story. My tale portrays how a positive attitude changed my outlook and outcome in life, instilling hope upon others who are coping with tragedy too. My present day is not full of misery--in fact, it's quite the opposite. Everyone suffers through hardships, but there is always a way to change things around so long as you actively search for it. I do not want people to pity me; I want people to realize that there is always the option to hit 'Reset' and change their world for the better.
    Thank you for taking the time to respond, and perhaps in light of this new information, you can re-read my post and see things in a different light.
    Battle on!
  • Im want account free pls
    beleen can you give me acc free plss you beleen beautifull
  • Kiwi Soldier_7831
    P.S alota errors just occurred back there lol
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    My sweet Kiwi Soldier, my sincerest condolences for your loss =( And trust me--I went through similar thought processes following my father's death, such as 'Why wasn't I there to protect him?' and 'Why didn't I spend more time with him?'. I now know I cannot beat myself up because I realized that I cannot change the past, but I can change my future. Everything I do in life is to make my dad proud, and wherever he may be, I know he's beaming his radiant smile upon me--and I know your mother is smiling down upon you too!
    Keep up the positivity and battle on!
  • Kiwi Soldier_1805
    Hey Beleen, you may remember me from a couple of chats and tweets etc but your story really hit home for me not in the same manner as this one but in how we both have the same love for our parents. I was 15 when i was holing my mothers hand in hospital as she laid helplessly trying to catch whatever breath she could in front of our family and friends. My mother was diagnosed with breast cancer when i was 5, she went through gruelling chemotherapy as a lot of people do, fortunately for her the cancer went away after a couple of months. 3 months after this she got diagnosed with cancer again it came back…with a vengeance, she was in hospital for a week because her body didn't know how to respond to what was happening, so the chemotherapy sessions started all over again along with the stress. This time it took a few months longer than expected to go away. Fast forward a year to a dinner party with family and she starts to have bad chest pains followed by nausea and vomiting, it was the breast cancer again, worse… my mum had to go to hospital again but this time extra precautions were taken and both breasts were removed and chemo started again, but this time her body had negative reactions to the chemotherapy, hair not growing back, her vision turning terrible, one eye was so bad doctors in 3 countries didn't know what was going on or how to solve the issue, an eye specialist in dubai was found and my mum and dad went there to try solve the issue which they did through a special pair of glasses, but due to the negative reactions and cancer life would never be the same, but after awhile things were thought to be back to normal and they were for about 3 years.( me age 10) One night my mum wasn't able to sleep, and a few weeks prior to this she started having terrible feelings and aches in her bones, this was a reaction to previous chemo sessions, her bone structure was wearing thin and she later was diagnosed with bone cancer, that's what we thought the bad news was until we later found out she had blood cancer and liver cancer to go along with it. We were told she was going to be living on borrowed time for the next few months since chemo was no longer an option, so she lived her life to the best she could, went on holidays to ireland, Dubai, London and places like that, she was given 3 months to live but she made it 14,( me age 15) but one night she fell terribly ill, migraines, vomiting etc but this had a serious impact on me, i had suffered from the exact sickness a few days prior, but i passed it onto my already sick mother and it was serious, she suffered from pneumonia.. :/ she went to hospital that night ran scans and everything was horrible, they gave her 2 days, so we called every family member and friend in the country to respectively combine as one and give there goodbyes, she made it to 4 days and passed on 27 September 2008 at 7:01pm. But through the middle of all that, i was living with the guilt that i had wrongfully given my mum a flue she didn't deserve and killed her, i started suffering from depression and thinking suicide was my only way out, until i started playing sports and online games and started socialising more with other people that i realised there was a different side to life where everyone is equal although we have all suffered different types of pain. And that is why your story got through to me. <3
  • Kiwi Soldier_9393
    Hey Beleen, you may remember me from a couple of chats and tweets etc but your story really hit home for me not in the same manner as this one but in how we both have the same love for our parents. I was 15 when i was holing my mothers hand in hospital as she laid helplessly trying to catch whatever breath she could in front of our family and friends. My mother was diagnosed with breast cancer when i was 5, she went through gruelling chemotherapy as a lot of people do, fortunately for her the cancer went away after a couple of months. 3 months after this she got diagnosed with cancer again it came back…with a vengeance, she was in hospital for a week because her body didn't know how to respond to what was happening, so the chemotherapy sessions started all over again along with the stress. This time it took a few months longer than expected to go away. Fast forward a year to a dinner party with family and she starts to have bad chest pains followed by nausea and vomiting, it was the breast cancer again, worse… my mum had to go to hospital again but this time extra precautions were taken and both breasts were removed and chemo started again, but this time her body had negative reactions to the chemotherapy, hair not growing back, her vision turning terrible, one eye was so bad doctors in 3 countries didn't know what was going on or how to solve the issue, an eye specialist in dubai was found and my mum and dad went there to try solve the issue which they did through a special pair of glasses, but due to the negative reactions and cancer life would never be the same, but after awhile things were thought to be back to normal and they were for about 3 years.( me age 10) One night my mum wasn't able to sleep, and a few weeks prior to this she started having terrible feelings and aches in her bones, this was a reaction to previous chemo sessions, her bone structure was wearing thin and she later was diagnosed with bone cancer, that's what we thought the bad news was until we later found out she had blood cancer and liver cancer to go along with it. We were told she was going to be living on borrowed time for the next few months since chemo was no longer an option, so she lived her life to the best she could, went on holidays to ireland, Dubai, London and places like that, she was given 3 months to live but she made it 14,( me age 15) but one night she fell terribly ill, migraines, vomiting etc but this had a serious impact on me, i had suffered from the exact sickness a few days prior, but i passed it onto my already sick mother and it was serious, she suffered from pneumonia.. :/ she went to hospital that night ran scans and everything was horrible, they gave her 2 days, so we called every family member and friend in the country to respectively combine as one and give there goodbyes, she made it to 4 days and passed on 27 September 2008 at 7:01pm. But through the middle of all that, i was living with the guilt that i had wrongfully given my mum a flue she didn't deserve and killed her, i started suffering from depression and thinking suicide was my only way out, until i started playing sports and online games and started socialising more with other people that i realised there was a different side to life where everyone is equal although we have all suffered different types of pain. And that is why your story got through to me. <3
  • Kiwi Soldier
    Hey Beleen, you may remember me from a couple of chats and tweets etc but your story really hit home for me not in the same manner as this one but in how we both have the same love for our parents. I was 15 when i was holing my mothers hand in hospital as she laid helplessly trying to catch whatever breath she could in front of our family and friends. My mother was diagnosed with breast cancer when i was 5, she went through gruelling chemotherapy as a lot of people do, fortunately for her the cancer went away after a couple of months. 3 months after this she got diagnosed with cancer again it came back…with a vengeance, she was in hospital for a week because her body didn't know how to respond to what was happening, so the chemotherapy sessions started all over again along with the stress. This time it took a few months longer than expected to go away. Fast forward a year to a dinner party with family and she starts to have bad chest pains followed by nausea and vomiting, it was the breast cancer again, worse… my mum had to go to hospital again but this time extra precautions were taken and both breasts were removed and chemo started again, but this time her body had negative reactions to the chemotherapy, hair not growing back, her vision turning terrible, one eye was so bad doctors in 3 countries didn't know what was going on or how to solve the issue, an eye specialist in dubai was found and my mum and dad went there to try solve the issue which they did through a special pair of glasses, but due to the negative reactions and cancer life would never be the same, but after awhile things were thought to be back to normal and they were for about 3 years.( me age 10) One night my mum wasn't able to sleep, and a few weeks prior to this she started having terrible feelings and aches in her bones, this was a reaction to previous chemo sessions, her bone structure was wearing thin and she later was diagnosed with bone cancer, that's what we thought the bad news was until we later found out she had blood cancer and liver cancer to go along with it. We were told she was going to be living on borrowed time for the next few months since chemo was no longer an option, so she lived her life to the best she could, went on holidays to ireland, Dubai, London and places like that, she was given 3 months to live but she made it 14,( me age 15) but one night she fell terribly ill, migraines, vomiting etc but this had a serious impact on me, i had suffered from the exact sickness a few days prior, but i passed it onto my already sick mother and it was serious, she suffered from pneumonia.. :/ she went to hospital that night ran scans and everything was horrible, they gave her 2 days, so we called every family member and friend in the country to respectively combine as one and give there goodbyes, she made it to 4 days and passed on 27 September 2008 at 7:01pm. But through the middle of all that, i was living with the guilt that i had wrongfully given my mum a flue she didn't deserve and killed her, i started suffering from depression and thinking suicide was my only way out, until i started playing sports and online games and started socialising more with other people that i realised there was a different side to life where everyone is equal although we have all suffered different types of pain. And that is why your story got through to me. <3
  • NukeCook
    You are so positive it shine thought my computer...I also playing Aqw from 2011 and i trying to consume every my char...Like to be cool,to were stuff like my chars and lots more...I hope that we will get someday title and medic theory about all of this...Much love go and be shine like you are <3 <3 <3 Much love(And support) from me and Serbia <3 <3 <3
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Thanks for surviving the bright beam of positivity, NukeCook! And you can become anyone you wish--just remember that a positive attitude will change your outlook and outcome in life!
    Keep up the great work and battle on!
  • Xrazoc
    Hello Beleen!
    Thanks for sharing this story, I liked it, it was sad, but you keep it up like any strong willed women would do, I respect for what you have done in your life.... I read this story earlier and gave a comment earlier but it seems to be gone for some reason, but I already memorized the story above somehow, since it was very prideful for what you have done after that incident. Making a change like that is huge. I think this is a good reference for all who has same problems as you had, I mean it really is inspiring and sweet story. I think this could be a hit story for all and not only gamers if you ask me.

    Just one more thing, do not let the past haunt you, I mean look at you,your present shows how you became you, treasure everything good your father has done for you and never forget it and share it to your children and future grandchildren. I'm sure they will understand how great he was.

    As a bonus, you have a new fan right in front of you, and get you extra love from me too for being brave enough to sharing this story.

    Kindly Love From A Fellow Player of AQW
    Xrazoc
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Awww, thank you so much Xrazoc, and I appreciate you taking the time to respond again =D I want my story to show how a positive attitude can change your outlook AND outcome in life. It continues to work for me, and I am hopeful that others dealing with ANY situation in life can triumph just like I have.
    The past does not haunt me--it empowers me. And considering all the wonderful comments and Tweets received, my story has empowered the world that I know =)
    Battle on, Xrazoc!
  • Papa Duck
    Beleen, I am truly sorry for your loss and I am really happy you found the light at the end of tunnel through gaming. You spread your positivity and love for everyone and it is so inspiring. My prayers go out to you and your family. We love you and will always wish you the best.

    Sincerely,
    Papa Duck (Duck)
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Thank you for your kind words, Papa Duck. My dad always encouraged me to triumph over tough times, and even in death, he still gives me the strength to push forward and brighten the lives around me. My dad may be gone, but his teachings and love remains within me forever. I am proud to be his daughter, and everything I do is to make him proud wherever he may be.
    Battle on!
  • topher339
    I feel for your loss. I have yet to lose any close family members. The closest experience I have to that is the day my father left for Iraq, and that's not even close. Only day I remember crying. So, I can't yet truly understand your loss, but I do empathize.

    I have seen what losing a family member can do to a family. Had a friend who's brother took his own life. I've seen what it can do to people and how many times, those people don't bounce back. I am glad that you were able pull together and turn your life around.

    An inspiring story to be sure...
  • Zenja Vencelj
    Dear Beleen,this is my first time writing to you,I read your story and I know how you feel cuz I too had suffer the loss of love ones.I lost my Mom and Dad at very young age(before age of 7) can't describe how much I miss them.To be honest with you,I suffered that horrible feeling 4 times in my 25 years,the hardest loss was death of my Mother and my Aunt,who was like second mother to me.If it wasn't people like You that gave me hope and helped me to go through all that pain,who knows what would happen.I wished that there is more people cheerful,happy and always with smile on its face in this world.Then this world would be better place.Your Father lives in your hearth and that is something that no one can take away from you.I believe that He is so proud on you and I hope that evil that murdered him will be punished for its crime.Be strong and know that we Aqw players are always here for you and your team.Best wishes:)))

    P.S My name in Aqw is ShadowdramonX,so if you ever feel alone,feel free to find me usual at Evil Sir Ver.
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    My condolences for your loss, ShadowdramonX! But keep your pretty chin up, because we need to be strong for not just our lost loved ones, but also for those who are suffering through tough situations. I promise to always stay positive and happy so long as you promise to do the same. Together, we can make this world a happier place!
    Battle (and smile) on!
  • Shane_3124
    We should play Aqw together :D Yorumi at /house Rainbow Lover :D
    And you're beautiful :3
    Last edited 1 year ago
  • AQW player_4758
    U are HOT
  • Majed_7328
    Dear Beleen,
    I have no words to describe how sorry i'm feeling right now. Our love, thoughts and prayers are with you and your entire family. We all love you and adore you, just stay strong for us and thank you for sharing! <3

    Sincerely, Majed (Zuu)
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Awwww, thank you so much dearest Zuu! I really appreciate all your kind words and warm wishes. I am blessed to have such amazing friends like you who are more like family here at Artix Entertainment.
    Stay strong and battle on!
  • SereZee
    Hi Beleen,

    Thank you for sharing such a sad, yet amazing and motivational story with us. It is heartwarming to hear that you can indeed turn your life around -- sometimes, all you need is self-motivation. It must be quite the challenge to turn a 180 on what life has dealt you at that time, and I truly admire your willpower and optimism. All the best to your future endeavors! Battle On!! :)

    Sincerely,
    SereZee (SerenityZ)
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    You're so sincere, SerenityZ! I just hope my story will help those struggling through tough times as well. It just goes to show that a positive attitude can and will change your outlook and outcome in life :)
    Battle on!
  • Anonymous_2511
    Hello Ms. Beleen,
    That's such a tragic story and I'm sorry to hear about your loss.
    I'm glad that you managed to overcome your problems and become a happy person as a result. I can't even imagine what it must have been like, especially since you only got to see him in the hospital.
    I always enjoy reading your design notes, most recently the artwork for the chaos lords and your silliness in general.
    I wish you only all the best and (off-topic), I love that you enjoy the color pink.
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Hehehee, thank you anonymous :) I will be sure to keep up the silliness, because life is too short to be too serious. When you're always happy, it's hard for others around you to not be happy too. So keep up that positivity and together we will make the world a happier (and sillier!) place :D
    Battle on!
  • Dragonfang44445_5434
    Hello Ms. Beleen! your story is so motivational and i literally had a big tear drop at the end, those words are words to live by and i will never forget your very sad and amazing story. I would have never guessed that happened to you as you are a beaming light of happiness(and pinkness) to me and many other players. Blessings to your past few years and many more!

    -Dragonfang44445
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Thank you Dragonfang for your kind words and warm wishes :) I truly appreciate it! And I will continue being the beaming light of hope to whomever have lost their path.
    See you on the battlefield!
    Battle on!
  • Kevin E.
    hello, baleen,

    first I am very sorry for the loss you had with your father, I know what it like to lose a father, but as Izabella_4558 said "You are an example for all the people around the world considering your courage and brave soul" and you are also my chose for the dragon slayer award as well^_^. and I do hope we see more of you in your videos you make and in game as well for I do believe it you and that smile that inspire many people around the world to be better then what they show every day^_^...oh and I after reading some of those posts those people if they don't want 5 year olds to read this they should have there parents look at what they are look at it not baleen fault
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Thank you Kevin E for hearing my story :) There will always be immature people out there, so that's why it's incredibly important for me and you and everyone else to have a positive attitude towards life. Positivity will change your outlook and outcome in life (and I know that for fact)! So let's be the real heroes and instill courage and bravery upon all who wish to learn!
    Battle on!
  • Nolax
    I'm really sorry for your loss...
    But now you always look happy, that makes me, and other people happy too!
    You're one of my greatest inspirations.
    Battle On!!! :D
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Thanks do much Nolax! I love making people happy because that makes me so happy too. I will continue to smile and do everything I can to make the whole world smile back :D
    Battle on!
  • Izabella_4558
    Dear Lauren I'm really sorry for the tragic lost of your father. It happens to many people, but only a few manage to go forward thereafter. You are very brave and talanted person. Your history is very deary, but went amazing with the creation of your character ''Beleen''. You are an example for all the people around the world considering your courage and brave soul. And remember you haven't lost your father at all, because he'll always be living in your heart and I'm sure he is proud of you right now. ^.^ I'm glad that your job in Artix Entertainment gives you the stenght you need to keep your head up and to feel better again, after all what happened to you in the past 7 years. I'm glad to you for taking the desicion to share your history with us. =) We are very happy with the game and expect to see more and more amazing releases from you and you partners. I would really like to meet you in the game, to take a pic with you and to chat with you. And you are my choice for The Dragon Slayer Awards, because you are a positive model and a great inspirator. That's why you deserve to be honored. Battle On! =D
    ~Charmcaster7 (Izabella Marinova).
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Charmcaster7, your kind words and inspirational message gives me so many warm fuzzies inside! Thank you so much for being apart of the Artix Entertainment family :) You are a true hero in game and in real life :)
    Battle on!
  • Emril_9037
    D:> Oh man... Who would've thought... My respect level for you has gone through the roof... Despite being allergic to the color pink myself... X3 I am with you, all the way! And anyone else who has lost a parent or two (myself included) would do great by following your example.

    BATTLE ON!!!
    -Emril
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    My dear Emril, my sincerest condolences for your loss as well. All these wonderful comments makes me realize I'm not alone, and responding to them all is helping me recover in ways I never thought were possible!
    Looking forward to seeing you on the battlefield!
    Battle on!
  • Aaronz_9732
    Sorry about all the comments from tween kids ogling the pictures.

    This was a good article, and thanks for disclosing this really personal information about your life. The people who didn't appreciate your story should reassess their state of mind.
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Thank you Aaronz for appreciating it :) I hope that the immature will eventually grow up to realize the message behind the story; that a positive attitude will change your outlook and outcome in life. I wish you all the best, too!
    Battle on!
  • TrunaAQW_6449
    I've gained a whole new level of respect for you, Beleen. Thank you for helping to create this second world that so many players live in. I adore this community, and I hope to be a part of it for many years to come. <3

    ~Truna
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Thank you Truna for being a part of this awesome Artix family :D Artix is like my second family and I'm so proud to be your older sister :)
    Battle on!
  • Vdrop_9926
    Bikini <3
  • queer_7805
    fuck yu fucking hoe what the fuck bitc 5 year olds play this game and you show your tits and pussy???????????????
  • Bruno_1190
    I love you Bellen <3
  • tanewone(AQW player)
    inspiration right here
  • RavynTheReaper
    You are an inspiration to everyone. Im so sorry for your loss and the tragedies youve seen, and Im glad that your so much happier now. Keep that smile on your face, beautiful girl :) You make everyone else smile just seeing it.
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Thank you for the kind words, Ravyn! It's because of friends like you that make AE a giant happy family :)
    Smile on!
  • Drag ziro (An Aqw player)
    Hey beleen thats a sad story you have there and im sorry for your loss and hope working at AE makes you happy :) i also lost my mother at 5 so i was really sensitive for this cuz i got the feels beleen, anyways i hope you have a great time at ae and battle on!
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Thank you for the warm feels, Drag Ziro! I'm so sorry to hear about your mother, but rest assured she has been watching you all these years and I bet you are making her sooo proud! :D
    Battle on!
  • Hold (AQW player)
    Greetings! I'm really sorry about what happened to your father, Beleen. And we actually feel about that. We hope that you're now happy with Artix entertainment. as they're really a good friends with all. By the way, Your dad isn't died. He is in your heart. with all his love in you :) Fathers are always the one who NEVER leave their family, Same as the mothers.
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Thank you for your kind words, Hold! And yes, Artix Entertainment has become my new family--they've helped me level up in-game and IRL. And I know my daddy is proud too, and I try to make the best out of everyday life so I can continue making him happy =D
    Battle on!
  • chickensrcool_8372
    Ive been a aqw player almost from the start and can i just say that this is so inspiring to me. Never would i hae guessed that the happy beleen had such a tragic past behind her. But Beleen you are a true inspiration to all of us and you have shown how people can recover, even in the most horrific circumstances.
    Much love,
    Chickensrcool
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Awww, thanks so much, Chickensrcool. When my daddy was alive, he was my greatest inspiration--and even in death, he continues to inspire me because now I must live the greatest life I can for the two of us =)
    Battle on!
  • Togechomp
    Such a sad past... I hope everything goes the good way for you now!
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Yes, Togechomp, my past may be sad but my present is full of happiness! I've changed my outlook on life--and as such, changed my outcome in life. Here's to having good things happen to the both of us!
    Battle on!
  • rruurruu77_3925
    :) i hope everything goes good for you beleen :)
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Thanks Rruurruu, I am certainly trying my best =D
    Battle on!
  • skymaster100_6174
    beleen u ware my favorite character in ae and u always will now i know u story and its simular to mine only my brother died i know how hard it is so ur the strongest not only in aqw not only in ae but in the world too!Battle on!
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Dearest Skymaster, I am terribly sorry to hear about you losing your brother =( But you too must stay strong! You must live the best life you can for yourself AND for your brother. Continue making him proud =)
    Battle on!
  • Namson Tran
    (quietly crying) T.T.............. That must have been very hard for you....I only hope no one else must face such an event like that. Only choice now is to raise your chin and look towards the future
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    That's absolutely right, Namson Tran! We cannot change the past, but we can shape the future; a positive attitude will change our outlook AND outcome in life!
    Battle on!
    Last edited 1 year ago
  • Yuukiya
    First of all, sorry for your loss. Although I never experienced family or relatives being murdered and hoping that such a thing won't happen, I know the feeling of personally losing one.
    I lost one of my uncles on my father's side. Passed away due to cancer, he did.

    I attended the funeral and the atmosphere was really heavy.
    Although my family and I live far away from the rest and that I only meet them during events or Chinese New Year for example, the sadness automatically comes in without fail. More so when I attended said funeral, some time in 2007.
    That was ironically 7 years ago.

    Once more, although I did not experience what you went through, I know the pain and sorrow of losing someone especially if they are part of the family tree.

    If it is really you here, do add me and I will add you. I go by the heroine named Yuukiya in AQ Worlds. I also planned to add Alina and maybe Robina and Gravelyn but it is hard to come across you all. >_>

    P.S.: I hope I can get the Plume of Paradise on February in 2015 next year since I missed this year's.
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    I'm sorry to hear about your uncle, Yuukiya. Losing anyone you love is difficult, but it's important to keep a positive outlook on life. Because when you do, you'll create positive outcomes in life =)
    See you on the battlefield!
    Battle on!
  • Angelica_8540
    What an amazing young lady you are Lauren Blanset. Not only are you a very talented writer and creator, well spoken. just as perky and positive as your character, mean lean gorgeous machine, brighten up everyone's day you come into contact with, free spirited, funny, fabulous and by far more unique and beautiful then any avatar or on line character ever created, but you have also managed to become an inspiration and role model for many young, middle aged and old gamers, myself included! I'm so deeply touched by your story and couldn't possibly be any prouder of you then I am now.
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Thank you so much Angelica, and thanks for all the wonderful compliments! I know Daddy is so proud of me right now, and I'm thankful that my family is able to continue living our lives the best we can. My mother and sisters just might get along better than before my dad died, and I know for fact that my relationship with my amazing California family is stronger than ever before. My Aunty Gel has always been my role model (especially when it comes to fashion!) so I salute her time and time again for teaching me how to look as fabulous as I feel inside :)
    Battle on!
  • Hatred Cuirass
    I would like to offer my condolences for your loss Beleen.
    While I haven't lost some family member, I lost an important person on my 16th birthday.
    One of the things I regret from that day is not being able to reply to the message that was written to me as a congratulation message by her daughter.
    It shocked me when it happened. I couldn't stop crying.
    I knew what it felt not to be able to see your mother, because when I was 4, my parents divorced and my mother decided to leave to USA to work and be able to pay our(my older brother and I) school, highschool and college.
    14 years have passed since I last saw my mother and I deeply felt sad when I saw my best friend, her daughter, with a cold empty stare a day after my birthday.
    I'm blessed for still being able to meet with my mother. I'm really grateful to everything she has done for me and I can relate when you say your dad was your best friend because my mother is my best friend too.

    I have hit the Restart button twice but I feel that's what has saved me from breaking down.
    AE has influenced me a lot in my life since 2010, not only I enjoyed some of the oldest and newest games, but I started trying to help the games by making art. Slowly, I kept improving until finally I joined the ED Team as a Guest Artist. I met people with different pasts in the team, they open their hearts to me as I opened my heart to them. I'm really grateful to Charfade for giving me a great chance of working with the ED team.

    As a role model, I still have a lot to learn but I hope that the AE community creates strong bonds between them.
    I expect to keep working more years with the ED team and the rest of the AE team so I can grow not only as an individual, but as a role model that can serve as inspiration for other young fellow players who have as an objective to be part of any game company.

    P.D. I created a NPC with a backstory that narrates some of my past experiences and I normally write at least 1500 letters every night to keep my mind at ease.

    Keep looking forward and inspiring people, even if you never get to know some of the players' past, some of us have felt related to you and that creates a bond.
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    My condolences for your loss, Cuirass. But I'm so proud of you for taking the courage to hit Reset, and a huge congratulations for being an EpicDuel artist! That's totally epic! And yes, Charfade and the ED team are wonderful people, and so long as you follow your heart (and apparent artistic talents) you will become the ideal you. Continue to stay positive and positive things will follow!
    Battle on!
  • DontWantToShareSorrry
    Nice share, I really don't know what to call you right now but I'll stick with Beleen.

    It's good to get things off your chest. Sorry to hear about everything though, may things keep getting better. :)

    And the dedication to the change you had, good job!

    Also, love the creation of Beleen! :D
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Thanks so much for sharing, DWtSS! I know my daddy is proud of who I have become, and I will continue to impress him every day until we inevitably meet again :)
    Battle on!
  • AQW SAO ANGELS
    omg im sitting here crying cuz ive been going thru damn near the exact saame thing since june 7th, except my fiancee, murdered, not father........im already beaten and abused by my mother and he was what finally made me realize i deservered to be happy and stop suffering for everyone elses happiness but when he died. ive been nonstop begging people to murder me, even tho ive been playing aqw as long as you, 2009. ive had countless accounts. but the one ive actively used longest nd namechanged 3 times, ( http://www.aq.com/aw-character.asp?id=Asuna_Yuuki_KoB ) is my best strongest and even when i was weak little pizzaGIRL111, my mindframe was always like Kirito from SAO. unlike most highlvl payed members who refuse to help anyone. i strove be the strongest and help everyone i could. i even found assmems harrassing beta players cuz of canned chat, partied them, made talking accounts and gave them access to my millions of emails to link and access chat to. some stayed friends forever, eternally greatful, others ran without even a thank u or goodbye. ive been reported by low lvl "noobs" who bit my head off for attacking a boss when theywerre trying to solo. accusing of me "hacking" to which my only reply was. if ur gunna solo. use a private room number. cuz public soloing is bound to get ruined. thru pizzagirl11, ralangel_lover37, lb101119, lovelovelove64, purple_rainbows, blood_elf_warrior, to nekowolfdemoness (asuna) i payed, i played, i became strong, i helped, i got temp bans for noob reports, but i came back stronger every time pizzagirl111s orginal reputation came to haunt me. i help countless friend with lvling, buying mem ect. as theyve done in return and altho the "terms" say account sharing is against them, ive spoken with countless mods on this issue, including on your "never share password " video miss beleen. if u remember the comments from "elley robert" i have hundreds of people online and real who can vouch ive never hacked a single one. i can link u 5 profiles ive spent over 100$ each on of friends and family if need be. sure, theres alotta scammers. but i aint one of em. ANYWAYS point being. all ive wanted since tetsuya died is death. anything left to make me happy is continually being taken from me. how can i get what u got.....from death and pain, to happiness and joy. ive applied for staffing posions for 3 years every time their up. im trying to learn japanese and coding as well and due to recent staff apps saying "clean account for several years" and havinbg been 3 day banned last time i applied im likely not gunna bother till i get my coding and jap down. but by then, my mother will likely have already taken my life as well. im 21 years old. aspergers syndrome, epiliepsy, dsylexia, beaten starved raped abused by my mother. deemed legally inssane cuz of her lies thus nobody believes me against her. she attempted to murder me on june 10th. im paralyzed, burned from neck to tailbone yet still beaten daily. whats left of my life, how can i be happy when everyone hates me and the only one who truely loved me litterally loved me to death?
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    My dearest SAO Angels, I am touched that you shared such a personal story with me. The fact that you spilled your heart and soul into your response is truly a heroic feat--one that took so much courage and bravery! And just like your AQW character, you too are a true hero. You must keep fighting the good fight and stay strong for both you and your beloved fiancée. Know that your fiancée still loves you and is watching over you, and you must make them proud by being the best person you can be. The AQW players and staff members are all family, and as such, all of us literally love you too! Life is a precious gift; that's why we live in the present :)
    Stay strong, heroic Sao Angels, because Good always triumphs over Evil, and you have the power to shape your destiny--just remember that your positive attitude will change your outlook and outcome in life.
    I believe in you! Battle on!
  • Garðar smári Helgason
    Before anything else let me say sorry for your loss I know what its like to loos someone I lost my grandmother when i was young then after that my great grandparents then I lost my favorite uncle i called him Daddi he was always so joyful he died in his sleep wen he was 40 way to young to die then after that I lost my aunt to cancer and I was bullied in school I was just that kid that annoyed every one by just being there so they decided to make me not wanna be near them they succeeded mostly bot it stopped eventually what i'm saying is that I now atleast something about what you've bin through and I wise you a happy life and if I can help in any way don't hesitate to contact me my email is garfar97@gmail.com and my AQW name is evil13.
    the weirdest thing though is that even after every thing my bullies did to me no mater how hard I try I cant bring my self to hate or resent them I simply cant I forgave them without knowing pretty pathetic ain't it oh sorry I started writing my thoughts again sorry about that and sorry about my spelling i'm Icelandic and not much of a speller and don't become any less pink I mean if Artix gets his sight back there wouldn't be any undead left for the rest of us and speaking of not having anything left to slay we need to find a non harmful weakness for Galanoth were gona run out of dragons otherwise and that wouldn't be good if that happens we wouldn't be able to get any more Fluffy's like Sepulcher had/has speaking of witch I kinda miss him pleas let him come back in AQW like you now he was destroy'd but not destroy'd he just needed time to heal back up you know get his strength back + there was that tee party he promist Death in the past I just made up so he used the opportunity dang it I have so many ideas coming out of my head for future plot stof and future games bot I don't wanna bother you i'm kinda going of topic sorry about that i'm gona stop know have a wonderful life and remember Battle On!!!!
    Last edited 1 year ago
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Thanks for sharing your story, friend! I'm sorry to hear about your tragic past, but I am so proud of you for not stooping down to the bullies' levels! That is quite noble of you and just goes to show that you're a true hero in real life! :D
    Together we can make the world a better (and pinker!) place!
    Battle on!
  • Dan_8671
    It's probably getting repetitive at this point, but like everyone else who's posted so far, I'd like to say how sorry I am for your loss. I've lost a decent amount of friends and family over the past couple years (and just went to a funeral due to SIDS today), but I've never had a family member who was murdered. I can't even imagine the pain that that would cause. I've been a member of AE's fanbase for roughly 9 or 10 years now, and I've never seen that pain come through for as long as you've been posting. The strength that you must have is unbelievable.

    After all of this, I really do hope that your family has been recovering and reconnecting. That connection that one shares with family members is irreplaceable, and with your father gone, it's even more important that you all stick together.

    I'm glad that you feel okay to share this with your fanbase now, and I really hope that your family continues to recover.
    Last edited 1 year ago
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Hi Dan, thank you for your kind words, and I'm truly sorry for your losses as well. I can happily report that me and my family (especially my mother) have rekindled our relationships as we try our absolute best to make the absolute best out of life =) My family loved the article and there was not a single dry eye in the room--they are so proud that finally, after all these years, I'm able to use my writing strengths to help me cope with my past.
    I look forward to seeing you on the battlefield!
    Battle on!
  • bugsy_2147
    This is sad but one question if ur dad was gettin murdred and u were there to hold his hand why didnt you try to fight the murderer just wondering beleen xoxo
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Hi Bugsy. I was not there when my father was attacked. My dad was taken to the hospital, and that's where I met him... and that's where I said my final goodbye, too.
  • Cimeahi_Aqw
    Hi Beleen...... I'm so sorry to hear about your father. You are extremely strong-willed and brave for hitting that "play again" button, because I know I would never be able to do what you did. I know I will never know how it feels to lose not just a father, but a best friend, but just know that the thousands and thousands of AQW, Mechquest, Battlegems, Epicduel, Herosmash, Adventurequest, and Dragonfable players will always be at your side. I've been playing AQW since 2010, and I've always loved how your npc would appear in Battleon and offer us pink-themed items(Artix must have been scared). Anyway, Battleon!!

    <3,

    The 14,545 users that are online right now

    P.S.
    I'm Cimeahi on AQW
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Thanks for your condolences, Cimeahi. And it is amazing how everyone who plays Artix Entertainment games are more like family members than than just player numbers =D We really are a part of a fantastic community, aren't we? See you on the battlefield!
    Battle on!
  • joshobro_7002
    beleen if i see on aqworlds what would you do

    1.friend me
    .2.invite me to party
    3.say hi
  • Donovan Gwinn
    Lauren, if I may call you that, you're story is really touching. I doubt many people could go through what you did to change your life. You're truly are an inspiration to any.
    I'm trying to do that in my life. I never did have any friends in school. I was bullied lot, beat up by multiple people at once, and was never invited to do things with peers. I almost committed suicide five years ago. Currently, I've been having relapse, with major depression and started cutting again because I had no alternative. Last month I nearly slit my wrists because I've lost all control of my life. Right now, I've been two weeks clean from self-harm. Your story helped me see that I could do what you did if I tried. Even though I'll have these problems my whole life, you helped me see that I can fight again. Thank you.
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Donovan, thank you for sharing such a personal story. It takes a lot of courage to bring up painful memories, but that's how we begin to heal. Just keep in mind that a positive attitude will change your outlook AND outcome of life! It won't happen overnight (I wish it did!), but every day you stay optimistic is a step in the right direction. You are capable of great things--so unleash your greatness upon the world and you'll accomplish amazing things you never thought were possible =D
    Battle on!
  • Chrysus_AE
    You have been one of my favorite npc's in all of Artix Entertainment's games and it is really amazing to see how your life has drastically changed! I am so sorry to hear about your father, loss is very painful. I myself have lost two of my best friends from depression. You cant really get over something like that, I chose to just take all the pain I go through as power. I give back all the energy I get from people and If someone is being bad or going through something hard I will try my best to make them happy again because life is too short to be sad.

    Keep up the amazing work, you are a beautiful girl. x
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    That's the right spirit, Chrysus! And yes, as we both painfully know, life is far too short to be so sad. We have to be double (and triple) happy in our day-to-day lives since our lost loved ones cannot do so themselves. <3
    Battle on!
  • Luis_6357
    I've always been a big fan Beleen, your NPC inspired me to always keep a positive attitude in life. Your story touched me, I can never say I know the pain, because it is different with everyone. But to avoid a long story, my life and many others have been hard and full of troubles, but I can say that you have made an impact on mine. Currently pursuing my dream as a Chef, certainly not paper wise, but working as one. I hope that you can keep inspiring people to live life to the fullest and to stay positive.

    I'm Luis on AQW.

    P.S. Maybe I can't make the eggs like your father, but I can sure try my best to be similar :P
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Sounds like you're cooking up some fun, Luis! Thank you for reaching out to me. And should you only take away 1 thing from my story, it should be to follow what YOU want out of life. You have the power to shape your destiny (or your plate, lol!), so stick to your strengths (and spatula) and I look forward to dining at your world-renowned restaurant someday soon!
    Battle om nom nom!
  • Valkyrie9001
    I salute thee, Beleen. I'm glad you've mustered the power to push through this. Keep it going, I'm rooting for ya.
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Thank you so much Valkyrie9001; that means a lot coming from a Valkyrie =D
    Battle on!
  • Corey Marshall
    And here I was thinking I had it bad...

    I'm sure the court case was a bittersweet victory on your end, Lauren. In a way, you're glad your father's killer is now doing time (hopefully permanent), however it won't help bring your father back. I give you my condolences for your loss.

    I'm Astroth on AdventureQuest Worlds, but I'd be grateful if you knew me as Corey. Due to my size, I've been bullied daily throughout primary school, or as Americans say, elementary school. My oldest brother and my uncle committed suicide in the same house, around one year apart.

    However, it's due to games that allowed me to retain what's left of my dignity and grow it back, meeting people who share the same interests and allow you to bring the person in you that the game wants to bring out: Adventurous, action-thrilled, you name it.

    Don't let the past bring you down. Your in-game persona has changed you for the better, and you've made a family out of every single player in every Artix Entertainment game. No matter if we play AdventureQuest or BattleGems, we will be like brothers and sisters to you.

    Take care, and remember, I'm here to help.

    -Astroth
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    What a touching story, Corey! I'm honored that you shared it with me! You know, they say it's not the size that counts, but how you use it--and when you use your power for greatness, no one can ever speak ill of you (and if they do, they're just jealous!). With great power comes great responsibility, so be proud of who you are and shape your destiny as you wish--because I believe in you and I know you're capable of astonishing things! The Artix family has millions and millions of heroes just like you, and together we can accomplish amazing things!
    Battle on!
  • AQWAmer
    Btw in that picture with your dad, you look soo cute and happy! <33
    Last edited 1 year ago
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Best friends have a way of bringing out the best in you (and in your photos, lol!). That was actually the last photo ever taken with me and my dad, and I'm glad that I could show it to the whole world (wide web). It's actually framed beside my bed--he's my Good Knight before I say 'Good Night!'
  • Bryle "Zygrin" Santiago
    I understand that touching story. Bad things also took my father away. But rather than life, it was his relationship. My dad is recently staying with another woman. I'm Bryle but my username is Zygrin, and I'm an 8th grader. My mother is living in dept, my dad, away, and me, gaming boy. I'm sorry for your loss, and so is mine. I'm just worried that my mom is gonna sign that "annulment form" thingy, and keeps me from crying every night because my family is living in extreme chaos. Beleen, I understand you and live up to this. BattleOn!!!
    Last edited 1 year ago
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    I am touched by your story, Zygrin. Thank you for sharing it with me. But just keep that chin up and make the best out of life--you've got 'grin' in your name, so be sure to smile as much as you can! Life is more fickle than any internet connection, but you have the power to shape your destiny and your life. Just remember that everything happens for a reason, and I know first hand that dark, dismal experiences can change your life for the better. I wish you all the best, and should you ever need a smiling face to enhance your grin, you know where to find me =D
    Battle on Bryle!
  • Randomperson11
    Video games have a magical way of changing people, and I'm thankful that AQWorlds allowed me to transform into my Mega Evolution =D
    _______
    Mega Evolutions are temporary, though...

    In all seriousness, it's good to see that you prevailed over such bleak moments in your life
    Although I rarely check the AQWorlds design notes and play the game very rarely(I prefer the first three AE games, to be honest, and DF out of those three), I did see that you're a wonderful person. I never would have guessed that you had such a painful past.
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    On behalf of the entire Artix Entertainment team, we are happy to have you aboard! And I'm glad that you love the Artix games as much as we all love making them for you.
    Artix is much more than just a gaming company--we're a gaming family (who just so happens to be experts at dragon slaying, lol!). Keep up the positivity, because together we can make Mega Evolutions permanent =)
    Battle on!
  • Menirz_1092
    Beleen,

    I'm sorry for your loss, but I'm sure your father would be proud of who you've become. You're a role model to hundreds millions and a friend to many. Stay strong and stay happy! Plus we can't let you get any less pink or artix will get his sight back ;)

    AQW Player and Friend,
    Glau_Rung
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    I like to think so too, Menirz! I got my smile from my father, and I know he's smiling down on me--no matter what realm he's currently logged into. And no worries about me becoming less pink--in fact, the more pink there is, the more the players can view life through rose-colored glasses!
    Battle on!
  • AQWAmer
    Wow. I never thought Beleen, the happiest and funniest person I've ever met, could have such a painful past. You did good by staying optimistic. I'm glad you shared your story with us, you fought your way through the huge dark cloud of sadness and that's the biggest achievement. I know what it feels like to lose someone you love. You should remember your dad by the smiles he had and by the great times you spent with him. Keep that smile on your face and Battle On!
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Thanks so much Amer! Your kind words and warm wishes are greatly appreciated (so many warm fuzzies, yay!). And I am truly sorry for your loss as well--but we must band together and live a fantastic life that both my father and your lost loved one *should* have lived! Because they still live on in both of us, so we must do everything we can to make them proud!
    Battle on and live life to the fullest!
  • Selulpchure
    Hello Beleen, I think it's amazing how video games can change a person in real life, the media talks about how violence in games can create a violent person in reality, they don't talk about the positive influences they can have on people as well. Most people in life would be paralyzed by the trauma that you experienced, you're one in a million to have overcome and become a better person out o that. i wish you all the luck in your future endeavors. SIncerly, Jesse Bass (@SepulchureAQW)
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Thanks for your positivity, Selulpuchure! Video games have a magical way of changing people, and I'm thankful that AQWorlds allowed me to transform into my Mega Evolution =D
    See you on the battlefield!
    Battle On!
  • Theckert
    Battle on, Beleen!
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Battle on, Theckert!
  • Xatar
    Hello Bellen, I am happy that you shared your deep and touching story with us.

    Well I just rode a lot of the comments below and I think that there's something AE has, you guys didn't just build a game it is much more, I always felt like AE was my second family.

    You gave us a home, something to hold on and no other company cared about their players as much as you did!

    I was joining you in 2010, searching for an MMO I could play without downloading anything, I got addicted to this game pretty fast and couldn't stop playing ;)
    I met a lot of people caring about me and so do I, I tried zo commit suicide a few times because I got bullied at school, but this game gave me the stremgth I needed to survive in this world.

    I was drowning put you pulled me out, and now I ny life seems perfect, I got a job, the best girlfriend EVER and made a lot of friends.

    Thank you for saving me <3

    And also sorry for the bad grammar hehe <3
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Xatar, thank you so much for pouring your heart and soul (and bad grammar LOL!) into your response. This truly means a lot to me. You are as brave--if not more!--than me for sharing such a personal story. Just remember that a positive attitude can AND will change your outlook AND outcome of life =D I'm honored to be your arm floaties, and will help you stay afloat whenever you need assistance.
    Battle on!
  • commander jane shepard.
    beleen... i know how you losing someone who was really close to you. i lost my best friend which was my sister.. thanks to her i made more new friends. battle on beleen *hugs*
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    My sincerest condolences, Commander Jane Shepard! Keep that chin up, pretty lady--because now you have to be the best for both yourself and your sister. I believe in you!
    Battle on!
  • Xrazoc
    I liked your story...but don't let the past haunt you... i mean look at you now... you are as you are and no one can change that, be happy for what you have accomplished, and you knew that he was a good father, bring those happy memories instead to your children and your future grand children and I think they will understand...well you can't hide the truth, but that will happen later I guess. After I read this right now it made me wanna support you a bit and say; "it's okay, you will do fine", or something like that. I think you got some love from me, got touched by your story. Keep on your pace Beleen, we know you can do it!!!
    Dang I do like to write a lot on the net........


    Kindly Love From

    Xrazoc, the AQW player( And your New Follower of AQW, and no I don't stalk people if you ask)
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Thanks so much for your kind wishes, Xrazoc--it really means a lot. And HA--you think you write a lot on the internet? You did just read that novel up there, right? Lol!
    I'll see you on the battlefield!
    Battle on!
  • DJ_5897
    Wow. Go gamer girls! Beleen, you rock! I'm on AQW so yeah ;-)
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Yeah! Great to hear DJ_5897! So you know what that means... Battle On!
  • colmena22_9445
    beleen te admiro mucho eres la Mejor (y). Quiero Que Hagas una armadura no member..!!
    Que sea con items
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Thanks colmena! We have brand new items arriving tomorrow at www.AQ.com, so be sure to check them out!
    Battle on!
  • HUEHUEUHEUEHUHEUEHUEHUEHEUHEUHE BRBR
    Gostaso pra krl eu comia o cu dela ate o talo
  • LukeOMG
    Wow i really don't know beleen history , but is amazing
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    OMG Luke! And now you know. And they say knowing is half the battle... so... battle on!
  • Dr.Tuozzolo
    I think its the most beautful things ive read in the 2014 :")
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Awww! And coming from a Doctor--that means a lot! =D I appreciate you taking the time to read this and send your warm wishes!
    Battle on!
  • Bido_8910
    You look amazing in the two situations ^_^ :)
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Hehe, thanks Bido. But now I have the (upper body) strength to conquer all of life's challenges!
    Battle on!
  • Brasileiro _5930
    Beleen (Lauren) que dia você ira nós fazer uma visita aqui no Brasil? *-*
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Brasilerio, I hope to visit Brasil one day! I would love to party during Carnival!
    Battle on!
  • MIke_3159
    Hugz. I lost the love of my life, and though it's taken many years, I've realized that the only thing in this world nobody can ever take away is a positive mental outlook.

    You're a phenomenal example, thanks for sharing.
    Keep fighting the good fight, you're amazing!
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Oh Mike, I'm terribly sorry for your loss--but you've got the right spirit! A positive attitude can get you through the toughest of times and, at the same time, allows you to connect with others who share similar experiences.
    We'll keep fighting together!
    Battle on!
  • Hassan_6678
    Amazing story beleen,I'm sorry for your loss.I can kinda relate cause of parents life cause me,my mother and father live in Austria while my older brother lives on the other side of the world in Australia.my parents fight everyday and its hard not seeing my brother,I have a sister too but she's married and rarely comes.ii found my escape in gaming,I made an account in aqw called "igjhy" ik ik amazing name, anyways I made it in 2009 and it felt like a whole new world opened infront of my eyes from the afk players in yulgar to the friendly people ready to help im level 49 and not the best player ever I still play and got my first member 2 months ago (its about to end).With the experience of AEs amazing (Social) game cause to me its pretty social I've met great people like b a t and obalisk (shout out) mabeh now im a happy teenager living a normal life,And they say games can't change your life./laugh
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    That's great to hear, igjhy! I literally lol'd at the "AFK players in Yulgar's Inn" part--sooo true! And I'm glad to hear that you're happy now, too =D So let's take that shining happiness and use it to crush the dark forces of Chaos in AdventureQuest Worlds!
    Battle on!
  • Doctor Why
    That was an amazing story Lauren! thank you so much for sharing that with us. this helps the fact that the AE team treats their players like family and this goes to show that you are a beautiful strong woman and you can do things when you set you're mind to it!
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Thanks so much, Doctor Why! Artix Entertainment, the AQW team, and all our beloved players ARE family (who just so happen to rock at kicking monsters' butts!). AQWorlds may just be a game, but it's become my reality, and what an awesome journey it has been!
    Battle on!
  • Zakrei_7885
    My name is Zakrei, or it is in the world you helped lead me into. I know things there, I'm not useless there. I can help people with my wisdom and my power, not just because a story says I can, but because I've seen that world and learned things that are helpful.

    On the other side, I'm Joshua. I suffer heavily from anxiety issues, I can barely talk to people without breaking down into screaming, crying, and self-hatred over losing control of my emotions again and again. I don't know who to talk to, I don't know what to say. I can't get help this way.

    But I have friends, somewhere. I have a large group of friends who are there more than anyone I know as a teenager. I have my guild, I am part of Ebilcorp. A guild sharing another fake name, the counter-point to another real group with real issues. We stole it, and we rock it. Sorry and thank you, Artix Entertainment.

    I know we all have our tragic pasts, and unfortunate presents, and little hope for the future at times... But we're together, and maybe that helps. We need to be able to reach out, and grab the hand of another person reaching. We have a world where we can go and do that.
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    It's so nice meeting you, Zakrei! And thank you for sharing your story with me. Each step you make in the right direction is significant progress (even if you are part of EbilCorp, lol!). Never be afraid to be the person you truly are. And you yourself can shape your destiny any way you'd like; so continue to rock your path because today is a gift--I guess that's why we call it the present =D
    Battle on!
  • Ellonnah
    From one gamer girl to another, you are inspiring, and beautiful. I would not be the same person in real life if it wasn't for "Ellonnah". Ellonnah Winglow is a cool, confident, beautiful, inspirational, kind, generous healer who lives to help others, that I created when I joined AQW. Lauren (that's actually my name, lol. My last initial is B, too!) was a depressed, suicidal teenager who was not very well liked, and never had been. I made an account in AdventureQuest Worlds in 2009 and made friends. Friends who changed my life and picked me up from the darkest place I'd ever been before. I always helped others, and at last, there were others helping me. I cannot ever repay AE and AQW for all it has done for me. I am now a confident, beautiful 22 year old wife and mother to a handsome baby boy. I enjoy volunteering and helping others, even if it means giving what little I have to give someone with even less hope and a brighter day. I have changed the lives of others in game, even saving a life like someone once did for me. I hope someday I get to chance to work for AE and keep the game the beautiful, safe place it was and always has been for me. I do hope you read this, you really are a spectacular, amazing, and strong woman. And I thank you for being so real with us.
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  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    What a motivational story, Ellonnah! It's amazing how a positive attitude can change your entire outlook (and outcome) on life. And congratulations on having a beautiful baby boy and loving husband (totally jealous right now, lol!). Thank you for sharing your personal story (warm hugs!), and I know together we can transform the lives of anyone we come in contact with!
    Battle on (for the greater good)!
  • FonzoHABB
    Wow. I've been playing AQW for years now, and this story has hit me the most (in a good way, of course). I've lost a loved one too, but I haven't really fully recovered from it. It really helps me to know what you've been through and that you've become a better person because of it. Thank you so much for sharing your story.
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    My condolences for your loss, Fonzo! It's only a game over if you quit--but you know what? Your loved one WANTS you to succeed! Make them proud by not letting grief ruin your life. Instead, take everything they've taught you and live the absolute best life for the two of you! I believe in you <3
    Battle on!
  • xDarkShadow13
    It takes a lot of courage share something like this, and you know what? I think you're awesome for that. instead of stay your whole life sad and grief for that, you found your way out to happiness again = ) Cheers Lauren.
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Thanks so much Dark Shadow! It took 7 years to finally have the courage to write this article. But in doing so, it is not only helping me heal, but it is also inspiring everyone who reads it. That is an epic win win =)
    Battle on!
  • Zachary_1878
    If you can keep moving forward after you've hit a b
    ump in the road, then you are a stronghearted person who can manage the impossible!
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Thanks so much, Zachary! Yes, you gatta keep moving after every speed bump, otherwise you'll just be run over!
    Battle on!
  • epicsora
    real talk i shed some tears i had no idea im kinda speechless but im sure your father watches over you everyday may he rest in peace and i hope you continue to be the shining beacon of hope for us players i know what its like to lose someone precious in my case it was my dog king he was the most loyal dog anyone could ask for he was very smart would cheer you up if you were sad and would protect you if you were in danger he lived a long life but we had to put him down cause he was to weak to go on but i know he watches me cause once in awhile i can hear him bark and its his sign that he watches over me sorry for the long comment when i talk sometimes i don't stop haha
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    It's always hard to lose a member of your family, whether they have 2 legs or 4 feet! Just keep on being the best you can be and know that whoever is watching down upon you is smiling (and possibly wagging their tail)!
    Battle on!
  • Aaron Rayner
    He who asks for people to forget a life he'd taken away values his life as little as the life he took.
  • Steve_8190
    I think therefore I am
  • The Stellar God
    We all have bad thingsthat happen to us, me my mom leaving me and as of lately my dad loosing our house and being homeless for three weeks, but like me you ffound a way to turn it all around, to move tthrough the storm. My condolences about your father but you must be strong willed to deal wit such a hard thing, so I /salute to you -michael
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    My prayers are with you too, Michael! Sometimes it's hard to be strong, but all you need is a good STR buff to help turn things around! A positive attitude can get you through the toughest times =) Battle on!
  • Mike Saunders
    Featured Contributor
    Rather embarrassingly I've never come across you Beleen, but that's because the games I prefer are of a different genre. I think your story is amazing, and its great to see how it made such a positive impact on your life. I applaud what you've done and that hopefully others can be motivated by this article :)
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Thanks for reaching out to me, Mike! It took 7 years to muster up the courage to unleash my story upon the world. My father was my hero, and every time I can be the hero to someone else, it reminds me of the good ol' days. So, in a way, my dad still lives on because I won't ever let that memory fade!
    Battle on!
  • Kiiro Infactoid
    My long belated condolences on ur pop. May he be respawned to join the fight against Chaos.

    Inspiring! tho i hate my dad because of his upbringing and attitude, it made me love my mom more...don't worry, i respect my father.
    I also once was a loner and a moody person back then in high school. but ever since starting an online life in some MMOs, Facebook, and eventually, in AQW, i'm the complete opposite of what i have been! The Internet can indeed bring positive effects on people. Sure it might often bring negatives, but, Lady Beleen, ur one of the few proofs that games and the internet aren't all that bad.
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Thank you so much Kiiro! Yes, I am hopeful that he will respawn; but if he never does, I know he's already Enhanced me with his STR, END, WIS, INT, and LUK stats!
    My daddy was my hero, so now I must be the hero in his place. Battle on!
  • STARS Guld Master
    WOa.... Beleen So sexy :v
  • Vestaxowner
    wow beleen, i cant believe you have such a dark past, my condolences on your father, but remember to always stay as the happy pinkomancer you are!
    Battle on!

    -Vestaxowner
  • Lauren "Beleen" Blanset
    Featured Contributor
    Thanks so much for your condolences and warm wishes! Let's put on some rose colored glasses and see the world in all its greatness (and pinkness!).
    Battle On!

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